I am completely awestruck with God right now. Completely dumbfounded, humbled, and amazed at his greatness... I'm speechless. Nothing I say can even come close to summarizing Him. I've been calling people up and telling the story cause I can't contain it! I figure this is the best way... I'll attempt to explain.

I was in my Principles of Computer Science class, its a seminar, SUPER BORING. There was some guy from Intel speaking, but for once my computer had great internet connection, so off I went surfing the internet. My ventures let me to look for things happening on campus, House Dancing came up. So I looked more into that and found a facebook group called 24/7 UCSD House of Prayer. Oh sik! I've been looking for a prayer group, but to no avail. The campus ministry on campus is strong and structured but it lacks a depth that I've needed. I feel its a sort of watered down Christianity. While they're not bad, I can just see that there at a point where its like, can we get more? or is this good enough? But more than that I've been looking for a group that naturally, is filled with the Holy Ghost, because while seeking him in my room is all fun, I really want that group. So i found this House Of Prayer thing and begin researching it. How they sometimes rent a room on campus and have people sign up so that someone is always praying 24/7 for the needs on campus, i continue to dig deeper.

I'm looking forward to going to The Call. And I never really realized the significance of Southern California when it comes to revival. Can I quote Lou Engle here?

They came like waves crashing onto the shores of California. Leaving behind a legacy of glory and apostolic influence, great manifestations of the power and love of God broke in on past generations of hungry saints. Waves of God’s great presence cascaded upon her shores in 1906, 1919, 1947, 1948, 1967, 1971, 1980, and 1994. These waves are California’s revivals. In the midst of unspeakable decadence, corporate greed, cultural trend setting, and global pornographic exportation, there lies deposited deeply below California’s crusty surface gold-there’s oil in her hills. Something continually draws God to the scene. Could it be that God is drawn to her pain? Maybe God sees her shores as hosting planet's lost prophets with misplaced passions or maybe he is drawn to the cry of her wandering masses. Whatever be the case, He comes, and when he does, the entire world is changed. The tongues of fire that erupted at Azusa have lit up the world. The revivals sown in Hollywood loosed great evangelists like Bill Bright and Billy Graham. The Jesus Movement gave us Calvary love songs that have kissed the youth of the globe. The new wine of worship and healing came from California’s vineyards. These ancient songs awaken us from our nightmare and remind us something that was and can be again. Hollywood, the “woman at the well”, could become the great evangelist again in these last days.

oh sik right? Now I found something else about San Diego, and UCSD specifically as I've been here.

A couple of days ago I noticed how strong the No on 8 proposition was on campus. Students marching around in circles yelling, proclaiming Gay Pride is the fashion and all the rave here. I watched them gather in front of the steps of the library, and prayed for them. Right there. While i really wanted to grab Yes on 8 signs and enter their circle, I had homework and probably not enough courage to do that on my own. Thus I went to the computer lab for 7 hours. But its not just that, i've seen the moral character here decaying in everyone, that it had become the norm. This place is so much more liberal then I thought. So what i was researching today was the idea of Humanism here at UCSD. Basically the idea sums up what the devil, the serpent, did at the garden of Eden.

The promise of the serpent was that if we eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, we shall somehow become like gods. A humanist would say that man is the measure of all things, the pinnacle of existence.

And it can be said that there is a lot of symbolism in the structures here on campus (did you read my last post?) But I never saw the library this way. Giesel library.



Its supposed to represent the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil like in the garden of Eden. Even more so, there's a path of a snake leading up to it. This is how the UCSD tourguides put it:

He started out at the bottom and said this: “This serpent represents your college experience. You start out at the bottom. At first the path is easy; then you get to the book Milton's Paradise Lost, and you realize you are leaving the age of innocence for a higher pursuit of knowledge.” After the six foot, granite book the snake path literally becomes steeper and the curves of the snake's back become much sharper. “It gets much tougher from there,” the tour guide said. “Then you get up to the toughest part of your college experience which is represented by the Garden of Eden, which represents religion.” The serpent path literally encircles the Garden of Eden. (Most large snakes wrap and constrict around something they are trying to kill.) Inside this little garden there is a granite bench bearing etched depictions of Adam, Eve and the serpent. “Your college experience gets much easier from there,” the tour guide said as the serpent path gradient flattened out. “Then you can behold the majestic glory of man, the greatest structure ever created, far greater than any natural structure. Come on- get closer to the majestic glory of man.” He finished his description of the snake path by raising his hands towards the majestic glory of man, which he said was represented by the Geisel Library.

SO... that's Humanism on campus right there. I didn't even know. I just found this out in my class today on the computer. I continued researching, leading me to websites of the Justice House of Prayer of San Diego and how they come to UCSD and pray on the serpent's head. So to make a super long story into a mear long one, i get out of class and start walking to class. Im distracted... praying as I walk. What is my purpose here God? Why am I here? Did I not get accepted into this school to do something! And i thought Im going to go home and blog. And im going to say, I've been here for four weeks, you would think i would have found what im supposed to do already. As im thinking this I see a fork in the road. The path that I always take to my dorm, and the path up the library that my be shorter. I seriously stood there, wanting to go my normal way, but something calling me up that hill. So i went up to the library not even realizing that I'm walking the snake path until I'm already up there. I saw a group of people in a circle on the snakes head. I figure it was a club or something and continue walking, until I see one of the girls holding the NIV study bible my Dad has. the blue one.

And here is the point of decision. Keep on walking? Go pray with them? Why are they here? Who are they? I walked away... but i felt such a strong calling to pray with them. Could I really just throw off my plans and go to pray with them? I veered off to a table and sat for a second. I realized I was breathing hard. I remembered praying for God to make it evident where i was supposed to be and walked back to the group. I pulled a girl aside and asked what they were here for. They said that they were in San Diego here for The Call from Washington DC and felt that they needed to pray here at UCSD for the growing Humanism here and when they came to pray they found these two Mom's that came to pray there too. So I asked to join and begin praying. Thankful that God has led me here. and the things they prayed about were amazing... for revival on the campus for a revolution in the youth today. That God takes back is people and shows them righteousness. For righteous leaders in the government, for professors here on campus. And.. they began to speak in tounges! With all of my exploration of the fiathbased clubs on campus I have yet to find one that believes in the holy ghost. It was wonderful. Once they found out i was a student here they all circled around me and began to pray for me. For being sensitive to the spirit of God that called me here. For the light I have to be on campus, and the strength to do God's will. But how to do it? I'll figure that out later. But the one guy that was there said that when he was in college he was alone, but began telling his roommates about God and having prayer meetings in the morning and soon the whole suite was involved. That people would come into where they lived and say, whoa? what just changed?

It all seems so surreal. Did God really call me here for a reason? Well I asked him to use me right? Its overwhelming. I can see that I am to be an example here... this week Ive been focusing on being a servant and caring about every one of my suite mates needs, I also quit my sorority. As I've felt God's calling stronger, I dont need that eating up my time. Plus I've already met all of the girls so I can still be a light to them without having to participate in their frat parties and sex games. I regret I have to leave or I'll be late to my Music and Architecture class (its so good!) but please pray for me as i continue to figure out what to do. I can't wait for The Call... but I can see everything laying itself out... its like the calm before the storm... preparation.

This is big for me, what ever there is to do. Will you help me?